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Sunday, July 29, 2007

Day at home

A good day to be at home. For 2 days straight, it's been raining/drizzling outside. And I'm glad I didn't go out. But even if I did, it'll be a nice experience. Why?

Walking in the rain. Alone. It calms my soul.

I want to give someone my umbrella so I could walk in the rain. Because I've been wanting to. What's the use of keeping an umbrella n my bag if someone doesn't use it?


2:57 PM

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Walking around town one night and I find myself walking alone. Why isn't there anyone beside me, walking together with me? I walked my own path, hoping someone would be there to hold my hand so that we could walk together.

I find myelf drifting away again. An afternoon of solitusion seems like the best time for me to reflect.

Been thinking alot these few days. I'm missing someone.


12:34 AM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Notable class spirit!

But first...

Touch my Lays and DIE!

Today is the day where ALMOST everyone wear the class tee. It was supposed to be a "Dress to Impress" but we were more focused on the Impress part rather than dressing formally to impress, since today's topic is about how first impressions matter when going for in interview and anything else related.

We went down together during lunch, and everyone were looking at this group who were wearing all green. We were like the centre of attention, but then they went back to their respective jobs shortly.

Let the pictures speak for themselves, even they don't have any mouth to say it out.





Delon and Li Min eating with their eyes closed.


After which, we took a group photo inside the lift!

Not everyone is inside the picture, as some were blocked, unfortunately.


The next terrorist doesn't want its identity to be revealed as of yet. Reported that she can camouflage well in the bamboo forest. So be careful while threading in an area where there are lots of bamboos.
Careful, don't break yourself.

After school, we went to Jurong East Entertainment Center to accompany Li Min buy stuffs for baking. So eventually, Delon, Rui Hua, Don, Jo, CS, Alex and me went to accompany her. But when we reached there, Li Min suggested going to the arcade first. So we just followed along. Li Min, Delon and Rui Hua played the basketball game.



I played the Drummania game, which is just behind. I won the first stage, because it was too easy, even though I missed some, considering I'm still just a beginner. I played Advanced in Russian Roulette and shortly after, game over for me. Meh.


CS played the Initial D car game. And everyone was like closely observing him playing. Notice the look on CS' face. Very focused.

Next, we went to the library to just slack and do our RJ as well (for those who hadn't done their RJ). Everyone just did their own stuffs.


Everyone being very 'guai.'

Rui Hua, Alex, Don and Jo went off first, as they live quite far, especially Don.

The announceent was sounded saying that the library will be closed in 15 mins time. So we quickly packed up and left home.



10:29 PM


TP Fright Fest



But before that, me and Rui Hua accompanied Delon to Plaza Singapura to buy something for his 1st month anniversary. =) I suggested Couple Lab since it's the place where I bought the ring. I saw some nice rings being discounted to $38! Wth, the only ring that is the cheapest is the only one which I bought the last time and now there are more. But oh well, we went to the basement booth to have a preview before going up to the main shop which is at the 2nd floor.



There was a cute angel egg heart set which costs only $15! It's very simple, nice and well, cute. I'm planning to buy one for someone soon. =)



Anyway, after that, we went on our way to Tampines. It was very crowded, considering it's in peak time. In the train, we kept 'bastard-ing' people, and we can't seem to stop.



On to interchange, we took 69 to TP, which is also crowded. Until at one stop where most of the passengers have to alight and we got seats in the bus. Sat till the rest of the journey.



We entered TP through the west gate. And Rui Hua was leading us, as though he's used to the place and knowing where he is going. But we just followed suit. So we went up the stairs, about 3 flights and it was the entrance of the convention centre. And we went for toilet break and look at this loooooong corridor which leades to the main entrance, which is the plaza. We looked at the map, pointed to the Sports Complex, and then left.

It looked as though we were going back to the same place, just that we weren't walking along the long stretch of corridor. We were walking along the track, as what loooked as though it was the sports complex from a distance. But when we reached there it was just the swimming complex, and it was the shelter above the audience stand. Ok, so we just went 1 big circle back to the west gate entrance.

Proceeded back all the way to the Plaza. Rui Hua called his friend who studies in TP asked where the sports complex is. It was beside the School of Business, which I pointed out but they didn't listen. Meh.

Shortly after we reached the stadium. There were cheerleaders training nearby. Jingy was having her taekwondo training as usual. We watched the team train for a while. After a few minutes, we went to find a place to eat, as we were very very very very hungry. All the food courts were closed at that time. So we went out of TP.

Stairs, stairs, stairs and more stairs. That's what we thought of TP. Everywhere we go we had to climb up a few flights of stairs before we reach the top. Tired and hungry, we still persevered. The nearest fast food restaurant was like freaking far away. We went around Tampines Street 31, hoping to find a fast food restaurant. I saw a KFC in the distance and saw that the lights in there were closed so I thought it had already closed. I thought it had shut down or it's closed for the day. So we continued on, finding hopefully a McDonalds somewhere.

And in the distance, we saw this golden 'M' logo. Our faces lit up, smiles were beaming from all sides. At some point, the place looked familiar, even the building that is nearby. It was the SOKA HQ, and the MCD was the place we went to the last we came to the SOKA building. But I didn't care about al that. It's like we found an oasis in the desert. We quickly walked over and reached the door.

As I opened the door, I knelt down just in front and raised both my friends in the air and yelled a triumphant "YES~! Finally we found what we came for!!" Tears flowed. Even Rui Hua and Delon, like refugees who got lost in the desert. It wasn't a mirage. We started hugging each other for having found such a wonderful place.

Ok, I bullshitted.

Anyway, we eat quite a lot. I especially bought a Large Iced Milo. We ate like savages who hadn't eaten for days. Oh well, shortly we finished our food. And then started talking. There was this guy sitting a few tables away from us, talking on the phone. We weren't listening to what he was talking about, rather his voice sounded like Dickson. It was freaky.

Delon went to the restroom. Left me and Rui Hua, we didn't really talked much, until this 2 guys went in and called "Dickson." And the guy who looked up. We started laughing hysterically, but silently as well. We were like, "WTF?" and continued laughing our ass off. Even when Delon came back, we were still laughing. Then Delon asked what was so funny. Rui Hua couldn't tell because he was too engrossed in his laughing. So I tried my best, and Delon laughed as well. But well, not as much as us.

The MCD sucked, in terms of wireless connection. We couldn't connect due to "limited or no connectivity." So I played a few games. At 9 we left.

It was quite a long journey back to TP. But at least we know where we were going. Shortly after Jingy called and we met at the benches near the School Of Business. We then walked to the bus stop together. I told her about what happened and just other random crap. The 69 bus came and I waved goodbye to Jingy. Took the bus back to TM.

Took the train home from Tampines, all the way back to Lakeside. I slept almost all the way there. I was very tired, after having walked like 10km just to find places.

Reached home at 11.02pm.


12:21 AM

Monday, July 23, 2007

Thanks for playing the game show! Hope you had a fun time guessing who is behind that curtain!
Tune in next time on The Stupid Random Game Show!
If there is ever going to be another one.

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Another one has been revealed.
Oh jee, killing brain cells is so fun.

I don't know what to post about anymore.


11:20 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Happy Birthday Gregory~!!

Let the pictures do the talking.











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After which, we went to Toa Payoh, to collect the class tees. =) And then to Burger King.

Don the picture spoiler. =)


11:39 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007

Saying "I want to be your friend" is easy but are you willing to sacrifice for me? It's like having the responsibilities so that I won't wander off into the virtual world. Someone needs to keep me down on earth. It's better off saying it but doing it? Some people just know how to talk.

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Funny how it's so similar. If it's not meant to be together, then we'll just split and go on our ways.

I'm not thinking too much. I'm just thinking alot. Doesn't hurt to think alot, does it?


12:45 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

I need someone who I can share secrets with.
I want someone who can understand my feelings.
I need someone that is there for me whenever I'm stuck between reality and virtual.
I want someone that I can rely on whenever I'm down.
I need someone to accompany and watch the view together.
I want someone to remind me that life is just a bunch of chocolates, with the wrapper.
I need needs.
I want wants.

I need a 'best friend'.

Is there such a thing called a 'best friend' in the first place? What's the definition of a best friend? Why is this phrase used in terms of relationships that is stated for long periods of time?

If a couple have been together for 8 years, going through thick and thin together, is that called a best friend? Or is that just unrequited love?

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It's the rose that never wilts.


10:32 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Everything I wanted to think about gets lost everytime I want to remember. I blame STM.
I'm reassured now. But a better reassurance would be to lend you my umbrella while I walk in the rain. It's a great feeling.


'It' works in mysterious ways doesn't it?


Are people complaining that my posts are too hard to decipher?
Don't try to change me. This is how I feel currently. I 'may' return to my usual self when everyone's gone.

Get the hint?


12:38 AM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

It's not that I didn't notice, nor is it that I didn't care. I noticed, but I didn't say it.

But it's not like you would care, right? Even if I tell you?


9:59 AM

Sunday, July 08, 2007

TiP

You can "AIYER~!!!" your frustrations away.

Thanks HUH!


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It's a negative feeling.


4:26 PM


The climax was episode 7. The after-effects is episode 8.

It's the rose that never wilts.

It's not the joy I see in you that makes me even in devastation, nor is it that you sucked the joy out of me, but it's the joy that I gave to you, hoping that you will be happy.

I know you saw it coming. But why didn't you stop it?

Why not we just pretend it never happened, since you don't care? Right?

Thanks for the trigger.


3:14 AM

Saturday, July 07, 2007

I'm not avoiding conflict. I just need a bit of time from everything. Everything I see now makes up some sort of conclusion. Slow fitting the pieces together. Looks as though I'm the type of jigsaw that doesn't fit into any jigsaw puzzles.

Outside (to Inside): I hate you.

The first I took the bus home from Woodlands. A time for recollection. The mood wasn't there. I thought it would be a 2-hour long ride. Guess I was wrong.

This is stupid.

No matter what you say, I know what you're feeling inside. Stop trying too hard.

Someone return me my joy. I seem to have lost it.


12:59 AM


I can go into solitusion if I want to.
I can be emo if i want to.
I can be stupid if I want to.
I can be serious if I want to.
I can be joyful if I want to.
I can be crazy if I want to.
I can be a rebel if I want to.
I can be a leader if I want to.
I can be a follower if I want to.
I can be with friends if I want to.
I can be in solitusion if I want to.
I can daydream if I want to.
I can piss poeple off if I want to.
I can be sadistic if I want to.
I can be attentive if I want to.
I can't get angry even if I want to.
I can cry if I want to.
I can be an active listener if I want to.
I can be a Scorpio if I want to.
I can be a Taurus if I want to.
I can be a Capricorn if I want to.
I can be an Aries if I want to.
I can be an Aquarius if I want to.
I can be a Saggitarius if I want to.
I can be a Gemini if I want to.
I can be a Libra if I want to.
I can be a Cancer if I want to.
I can be a Leo if I want to.
I can be a Virgo if I want to.

Because I'm a Piscean.


12:46 AM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Hi I'm Sorrow!

I don't bring joy.
I have a grey personality.
Seeing other people's joy just makes me even more sad.
I'm boring.
I see myself as a burden to others.
I may not look like it, but actually I donate my joy to others.
So I'm a selfelss person.
Try not to cheer me up as it won't bring any benefits.


12:16 AM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Slowly fading back into the present. Still, hostility can still be seen.

I'm trying to pretend nothing has happened. Let's start again. Before that. Where everyone is happy, when I was happy. When you were happy and I am happy.

Look at me when you're talking. Don't try to avoid eye contact. If you want to say it just say it.
Hate me hate me.

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Change of teams can be seen as good or bad. If they're in a group with people who get along well, they tend to cooperate better. For the latter, it may cause unnecessary problems among team members. But luck doesn't fall into anyone's hands. Unless the dice is loaded.

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Get ready for a feud tomorrow.


9:47 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

What happened to me today:


Did not manage to take picture.

Ate nasi lemak for the 3rd time in a row.

I crapped about "Personal Perception."

I went home alone.

The wind blowing against me is nice.

I couldn't hug my lappie properly.

I reached home without listening to my iPod.

Reasonable assumptions that may happen in the future:

I may start to skip school.

My grades may start to drop.

I may go crazy.

I may cry in the guy's restroom.

FiFi may disappear.

The guy from 3 years ago may start to emerge.

I may be forgotten.

Pessissmiticity may take over me.

Prom may turn out like last time.

My life in RP may be wasted.

No company.

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What does "cheer up" mean?

If promises are meant to be kept, what's the use of making them up in the first place if you keep breaking them?


9:55 PM


Milk Run

...

Venetta: C'mon people! Say it with me! I love MILK! I LOVE MILK!

*total randomness*

Me: I love MILK! I love milk plasma! Whey!

...

Lame.


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